How’s everyone? I’m feeling a bit low. I’m not completely sure why, but I think I’m carrying around a lot of anxiety about this country right now (more than usual). This isn’t going to be a post all about that though, because I’m just too tired to think about it anymore. Just to say that I’m usually an optimist but lately it’s all been feeling a bit hopeless.
In fact, I’d say that 2017 is probably the most pessimistic about SA’s future that I’ve ever felt, since we moved back here from the UK in 2009. This is an older post on the Discopants blog that echoes many of my sentiments, although she ends it on more of a positive note than I’ve been feeling lately.
But moving on (because I can ruminate and wallow in anxiety but that does no one any good). We’re all in hibernation mood here in Cape Town. I’ve felt that winter hibernation thing much more here than in Jozi: all I’ve wanted to do is to stay home and bunker down and cook meals and be by ourselves. Does this help my mood? I’m not sure that it does, especially when the kids start fighting due to cabin fever and hitting each other over the head.
We’re going out for dinner tonight, which will make a nice change from traipsing around in our bunny onesie (me) and our leopard onesie (him). My brother and his wife are in town so we’ve booked a table at a nice restaurant and we’ll even go for drinks beforehand, like sophisticated grown ups do. We may or may not wear our onesies. Jokes.
The kids are on school holidays so this last week was full of trying to arrange play dates, and taking them grocery shopping, and doing any thing we could do to get them out of the house. I’ve also recently discovered Club V at the gym which has been such a game changer! (why did it take me so long?).
And then the REALLY exciting news is that I have a new niece! My sister had her baby girl two weeks ago in the UK and we are all over the moon. Even better, I am flying over to see her next week. Because my mother can’t be there to support my sister, my Dad has very generously bought me a plane ticket to go over and spend some time with them.
I hope I remember all the newborn stuff guys! I can’t wait to cuddle that little baba and I’m really looking forward to being there with them all. The kids are getting very used to me going away – but these are exceptional circumstances with a new baba in the family, and I know they will love the time with their dad and my in-laws.
There was such a great response to my Imperfect Parenting post – thank you! And it seems I’m not the only one who feels this way as Laura and Cindy have both written similar posts recently and they’re worth a read…simply to remind ourselves of how we’re all just doing our best.
I wish I had some big idea to end this post on, but I don’t. I just have this MEH feeling that is following me around at the moment like a little grey cloud. And as much yoga as I do (okay I only went once last week), I can’t seem to shake it. I don’t think social media is helping, as the news every single day is ALL BAD.
I know I have so much to be grateful for, but today my world just feels a little bleak.
Thanks for listening to my moan,