Do you ever feel a bit…pointless? Not in a family or work sort of sense, but just in terms of what you do the rest of the day (i.e in my case, blogging/writing). Lately I feel somewhat irrelevant. I keep having these thoughts and thinking: well no one is going to gain much from THAT sort of conversation because you’re too x, too y, too z. I think this is a writing, blogging and social media issue, and probably not one that those of you who don’t blurt your whole lives out on to the Internet will have. Lucky you.
I guess what I’m saying is that I can’t tell the story of our lives forever. Not that I tell the entire story of our lives at all, but when is it time to retreat and live your life without having to explain it or do it in front of others? The thing is that shy people often gravitate towards the online life as a way of telling their stories, but on their terms. But what you’re putting out there is hugely personal and you’re just doing it, over and over again, while most normal people keep their innermost feelings completely to themselves.
“But no one’s FORCING you to blog and stuff”. Yes, I know. But once you start, you get addicted to the creative outlet. Of course the free things and experiences and making a bit of money each month are wonderful additions – ones I’m so grateful for. But sometimes it seems that having a different vocation, one that is not quite so soul-baring all the damn day, may be a bit easier.
If I didn’t have this blog I would still need to write, that’s for sure. So maybe it’s simply time for a format change? The thing about a blog is that it’s very like going for a run. You don’t need to involve anyone else. It’s low admin, you just need some tackies (i.e a website). And afterwards, you feel really really great. But there are many ways of exercising/writing. The skill and wisdom lies in knowing when it’s time to change the way you do things.
I’m coming up to five years of blogging in October – FIVE YEARS! When I started back in 2012, I thought it would be for a few months at most, to see if I liked it. And yet here I still am.
This is a bit rambly but may help to explain why I’ve been blogging a bit less lately (I need to get my head around it all).
Have wonderful weekends,