Writing

Calling Out Into the Void

August 4, 2017 | 12 Comments

Do you ever feel a bit…pointless? Not in a family or work sort of sense, but just in terms of what you do the rest of the day (i.e in my case, blogging/writing). Lately I feel somewhat irrelevant. I keep having these thoughts and thinking: well no one is going to gain much from THAT sort of conversation because you’re too x, too y, too z. I think this is a writing, blogging and social media issue, and probably not one that those of you who don’t blurt your whole lives out on to the Internet will have. Lucky you.

I guess what I’m saying is that I can’t tell the story of our lives forever. Not that I tell the entire story of our lives at all, but when is it time to retreat and live your life without having to explain it or do it in front of others? The thing is that shy people often gravitate towards the online life as a way of telling their stories, but on their terms. But what you’re putting out there is hugely personal and you’re just doing it, over and over again, while most normal people keep their innermost feelings completely to themselves.

“But no one’s FORCING you to blog and stuff”. Yes, I know. But once you start, you get addicted to the creative outlet. Of course the free things and experiences and making a bit of money each month are wonderful additions – ones I’m so grateful for. But sometimes it seems that having a different vocation, one that is not quite so soul-baring all the damn day, may be a bit easier.

When I tweeted about this earlier today (because clearly it’s hard for me to keep anything bottled up for long!) – I got some really useful advice from Robyn and Sharon: 

If I didn’t have this blog I would still need to write, that’s for sure. So maybe it’s simply time for a format change? The thing about a blog is that it’s very like going for a run. You don’t need to involve anyone else. It’s low admin, you just need some tackies (i.e a website). And afterwards, you feel really really great. But there are many ways of exercising/writing. The skill and wisdom lies in knowing when it’s time to change the way you do things.

I’m coming up to five years of blogging in October – FIVE YEARS! When I started back in 2012, I thought it would be for a few months at most, to see if I liked it. And yet here I still am.

This is a bit rambly but may help to explain why I’ve been blogging a bit less lately (I need to get my head around it all).

Have wonderful weekends,

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12 Comments

  • Reply Bridget McNulty August 4, 2017 at 2:16 pm

    I used to blog for career purposes – to get my name out there, and get lots of comments and shares etc.
    That was bloody exhausting! Because you’re curating a version of yourself, whether you mean to or not.
    A few months ago I started a blog where I just write what I’m thinking. No images, no SEO, no shouting about it at all, anywhere. It’s just a space for me to write about whatever I want to, and if people happen to stumble across it, good for them. It has been nothing but joy so far…

    • Reply Belinda Mountain August 5, 2017 at 8:05 am

      Yes – Cath told me! I guess that once you start getting feedback on your posts you start to think about how they’re being received (and how you can write more that resonate with people) and then you get all caught up in your own head trying to perform for an audience, instead of writing for yourself – which is what you’re doing. Thank you for the reminder.

  • Reply Caley August 4, 2017 at 2:19 pm

    Those were my answers too – it’s for me and nobody else but I love the social interaction and engagement that it brings too! x

  • Reply Laura August 4, 2017 at 10:52 pm

    I don’t think the ‘pointless’ feeling is just a writing/blogging/social media issue. I feel it when working on marketing materials. I often look at advertising and marvel at the whole cycle of acquisition that doesn’t provide the connection people really desire. My brother feels it in his finance career. I think its a thinking person issue. Those who look at the world and see a lot of action, repetition and drive to keep up, know what’s up and buy it up. But not always for any real purpose. It’s also our age

  • Reply Cassey August 7, 2017 at 6:12 pm

    I want to co-sign what Laura said.

    • Reply Belinda Mountain August 7, 2017 at 6:40 pm

      Indeed! Have been thinking about it a lot since she said that.

  • Reply Stephanie Videira August 7, 2017 at 9:12 pm

    I enjoy reading ur blog, but life gets so busy that lately i haven’t kept up, but yeah do it for u and if the numbers are there great if not don’t stress, think when ur kids are older they will love reading ur blog and learning about there mom threw this

    • Reply Belinda Mountain August 8, 2017 at 9:29 am

      Thanks Stephanie – seems that echoes a lot of what other people are experiencing at the moment…we simply don’t have time anymore to read blogs! I’m going to do it for myself and my kids one day – and if other people read it then great!

  • Reply Megan Keith August 13, 2017 at 10:39 am

    I love this post! My blog is small, and relatively “unknown”. I’m also new to writing, and have been exploring different avaenues of creativity lately. But I keep thinking of my little blog, and I have so many thoughts and things I want to share, but don’t know if people would be interesteted. Thank you for reminding me that I do it for me! Megan xx

  • Reply Robynne October 19, 2017 at 11:37 am

    B, I don’t comment much, but I do read…everything you write. I think you have some really insightful perspectives, which are always positively tinged. I’ve learned a lot from you. I’ve thought a lot about what you’ve shared with us. Your writing has shaped some of my thinking, my understanding, it’s definitely made me more empathic. I have wondered why I don’t comment much. I think, mostly because I’m not a confident commenter, and so I feel I should only say something when I have something insightful or intelligent to give back to you. I guess writing, ‘well written’ or ‘good point made’ every time would become too monotonous in response, I guess I’m scared my frequent commenting would lessen my thoughts of appreciation. I think I also don’t comment I think at times, you are doing this for you, for a way to reflect and sound out your thoughts and feelings, my feedback isn’t required to complete your process. But today I read a headline and I instantly thought of you…”George Saunders: ‘When I get praise, it helps me be a little bit more brave” and this was a lightening bolt to my brain, that I must commentate on every post that resonates with me, even if in just a small way, even just to show my appreciation that you care enough to pass on your experience of a book read or a fun Saturday morning out…and it’s because I want you to be brave, I want to read your brave posts as these will help me in my quest to be braver, to find clarity in my thoughts and where they fit in the world around me. To help me speak out knowing I have read well, and learnt from an intelligent emotional source, a source who has lived life in a spectrum of experiences and been brave enough to share it with us, so we could grow and learn and feel the joy and the pain that will turn shape us, so we can be prepared, so that we know what bravery is and that it can be done. And so thank you for everything you’ve written. It’s not a void, it’s not irrelevant, your words fall softly into places that result in growth and thought and change. X

    • Reply Belinda Mountain October 19, 2017 at 2:27 pm

      Robs this is one of the kindest most insightful comments I’ve EVER received on this blog! It means the world. Even a simple “loved this!” after a blog post is encouragement to be brave and carry on as a writer, so you’ve hit the nail on the head. THANK YOU. xxx

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